In two separate incidences in the same day I have learnt about my own self-awareness. In a book called the forgotten Ape, I read a term called personal psychological feedback. This had a immediate psychological feedback experience for me. Reading it did it, I reformed the loop of feedback there and then.t. And now listening to the four pillars of emotional intelligence I realise how deliberate I have been in ignoring my own psychological feedback. This makes me very sad because I have denied or sabotaged my own Self in order to pretend to be somebody else. This is personal and around my sexuality so I won’t allude to it here. But this awareness of psychological feedback is both profound and upsetting.